SeymourR

I do, lol.

the only reason why I want to get the boring stuff out of the way, is so I don't have to expand so greatly later in my artistic career and so I don't lose juju. I aslo struggled with doing what I like, even though I like creating and this comes less from knowing what to do and more about knowing how to do. I might be a perfectionist, or a masochist, because I find making progress from the boring things better than just doing something I like.

I used to draw as a child and perfectionism ruined me back then. Now it has settled and I have decided to take it more seriously (learning wise.)

What has made me really angry is that I have tried so many things and I still feel lost. I can't say it is perfectionism, because I haven't struggled with the urge to be perfect. My urge is to succeed and it frustrates me to not find progress.

Also, before I actually liked drawing heads, I spent day and night doing the loomis method before I actually enjoyed it. I practiced the loomis method because my fear is that I would not be able to do what I want in the future. I had a lot of time, considering this was before Covid and my schoolboard wasn't making me do an advanced math course in just 4 weeks like now.

Now, if you see differently then I am glad, since my opinion is just one.

I make time for drawing for fun, that isn't the problem. The problem is figuring out how to progress during a standstill.

I don't have a date for anything though, it is that I swore to myself that if I could invent it, even on extreme angles and setups, then I could move on. My feeling is not based upon the idea that I am falling behind, it is the fact that I have practiced essentials rather thoroughly, but I am stuck for some reason. Now, maybe this is a preconcieved notion of myself that isn't healthy but for the last year, I haven't been making as much progress (Even though I am far from finished learning) from doing art like in 2020. I have done DRAW A BOX for a little bit now and am up to lesson 6 I feel I have not progressed because I am unsure of what to do next, even though I am going through and learning the lessons.