6:16 PM, Monday April 26th 2021
I'm doing the 50% rule with digital.
Here's an example of why the complete inability to erase is very stressful to me: if you're drawing a cube and you make one wrong line, the entire cube is going to be wrong, and any time you spend on the rest of the cube is wasted because you're not learning to understand it in perspective because the perspective is already wrong.
Another example is how I was doing the form intersection exercise, and I was trying to draw a circle, and it ended up being horribly deformed because sometimes that's how elipses turn out even if you're generally good at them. That giant deformed circle isn't going to make a 3d shape that's conducive to the exercise, let alone the sphere, and now, the entire page is obscured by this useless shape, which makes the rest of the exercise more difficult, not because you're learning more, but because you can't see properly.
Making these mistakes that inhibit my learning doesn't make me feel more confident. In fact, it's the exact opposite. It makes me feel like I'm a failure incapable of creating anything decent and I'm wasting my time even trying because all doing is just adding to a drawing that's already wrong and therefore isn't helping me learn perspective.
Doing the 250 box challenge, after 150 boxes, I felt like I wasn't learning objects in space any better. It became just an exercise in making straight lines because the moment you didn't, you're just reinforcing work on an incorrect perspective.
I don't feel like the value of always respecting every mark right away is worth sacrificing the increased learning or perspective, let alone my mental health or stressing out my partner. Especially when you consider that you can practice deliberate mark-making in other ways that won't ruin an exercise when you fail.