sounds like a case of total burnout to me. I experienced this many times when doing the 250 box challenge. the thing that really helped me was to just take out some time aside to draw things that I liked. sometimes I felt like I couldn't move on if I didn't finish the exercise, but I soon realized that wasn't true, and took the time to reconnect with drawing as a hobby/ thing I wanted to do.

some other things that might help are:

1) your environment. sometimes we really need a change of location to actually feel like doing something-- especially if your current drawing location is associated with a lot of struggle.

2) affirmations to yourself before drawing: "it doesn't need to be particularly good, in fact the website expects it to be bad"

"I'll go at my own pace, even if it's one line everyday" lines like these could maybe help you get into a better mindset before drawing.

3) Posting your work to the discord for advice. sometimes we can't work on things because it feels pointless or going nowhere. the discord could really help you by giving you really specific things to focus on, which is much easier than focus on the entire page.

4) take it one bean section at a time. it feels overwhelming to do two pages of the dissections, and you have more exercises to tackle after this. after finishing a bean section, call it a day and rest.

5) extend your break. maybe two weeks isn't enough for you to recover from burnout

you don't have to 'get over yourself'. It's important to listen to your body and mind, as it really seems like the stress is getting to you. remember, many people take more than a year to complete each lesson. It's okay to take your time, and remember that you're not failing at the course just because you can't bring yourself to do an exercise right now.