7:26 AM, Friday November 6th 2020
Hi! I'm a beginner and have faced similar problems in the past months.
The first issue you mentioned might be related to the second one. If you give yourself permission to freely draw things you don't feel ready to draw, you'll more likely discover what topics or projects truly give you joy. You'll also have a better, objective understanding of what you still have to learn.
Then you can start looking around or asking for the best resources that teach you what you need to learn. Without treading new, difficult territories, we stagnate.
Starting over Draw a Box following the Patreon rout is a hard decision but it will give you a really solid understanding of the material, which is crucial to tackle any other area of study. I think it's a very good idea.
Maybe this time don't focus only on Draw a Box? You could follow some other courses meanwhile and take more risks with your drawings.