10:48 AM, Wednesday January 29th 2025
What I've understood that outcome of this course will blend into my workflow overtime. Its nice to see that someone noticed that I am full of doubts, thinking and feelings. Yes, I question a lot and building my own theories to try out. That only means they are applicable to me, so if someone find here criticism or any negatives - its not, I am genuinely unsure.
Captured coincidence - do you ever tried to spend 1-2 hours non-stop drawing without any ideas? That's what I was doing most of 2023 art sessions. And the output far overcomes if I draw from ideas or references. As I don't have skills, the drawings are "stiff", but more "creative" and coincidence is unexpected object interactions. That's why I am confused how planning (construction) will help me as process involves a lot of play.
My solution is to move forward and see how it may help. Based on what Uncomfortable and you said, I made a conclusion that this course may enrich my spatial reasoning. Let's give it a shot!
I am comparing myself to reasonable (or I think so at least) people. For example, who started approx. when I and achieved better results than me in the same period of time. That's maybe unfair but I heavily question myself and searching how I can move more effectively. Still there is no answer besides increasing hours per day practicing drawing. Yeah, I am not trying to achive top of the world, and my goal is to draw what I want exclusively for myself at OK quality.
That's why I don't want feedback on my work from anyone, even if its course or high professionals. The main problem I faced when I was asking for a feedback is that people are different and does not matter if they are master at art or not - feedback will be from their perspective, not mine. And if I believed them, I will adapt their approach to work, what I am trying to avoid as much as I can.
The reason is - someone's detailed criticism actually feeling like not following myself. It is making me less want to progress in drawing. More I see someone in my work, less it gives me satisfaction of inner world reflection. Result - I will be less happy about my work and myself. It may sound like built wall or false belief. Some may say that art is a skill and don't heavily internalize it. And agree to them. But I want to keep my drawings (not only them, any creative work like writing) as close to me as possible in terms of reflection.
"I found drawing from imagination harder" - not for me. I found drawing without ideas or guidance much harder than it was before starting it. So, maybe I should finish my milestone and give a total break from it for half or even a year to reconnect new with old. I have no joy drawing from ideas. Initial ideas are always "meh", similar feeling to AI art. Doesn't matter how skilled artist, if he draws a cat face - it is a cat face and I don't consider it a creative work. It is an art, but it is just a good-looking cat face, nothing else to it at all. At the same time low-skilled comics are more appealing to me than detailed art of an object.
And yeah, I've deleted and thrown away my sketches (digital and paper) a little before starting Drawabox, So, I have very little of them now
Do you you have any questions for me to clarify something? Or maybe you have another perspective to my drawing approach? Or I just wrote some noob garbage and I should stop wasting people's time reading it, what do you think?