7:22 PM, Tuesday August 29th 2023
It's hard to say without specific details what might be the cause of your struggles, though I understand you may not want to provide them. I will hazard my theories, make of them what you will.
It does sound like you're experiencing a form of creative burnout or perhaps just general directionlessness. You want to do art, but that's an incredibly broad subject. I think a question more important than "should I do DaB?" is "what do I want to get from DaB?", and more broadly "what do I want to get out of my art?". I know really general questions like the last one can be very difficult or impossible to answer, but I'd at least give it a little thought. The second question is a little easier. DaB has a very specific focus, outlined in Lesson 0. It is supposed to teach you the skills of mark making, observation, and spatial reasoning. It does so very rigorously. DaB is a hard course and while there isn't an easy way, there's countless other places you could start depending on your goals as an artist. That's why the second question is important.
As far as enjoying art, every artist I've ever spoken to struggles with this repeatedly. It is really difficult and I do think DaB's 50% rule is a good tool to develop a better mindset and mental strength for inevitable set-backs. I think the habit of just messing around and figuring out what you do like (looking at art, watching movies, going to museums, reading books, etc.) would be more helpful to you right now than diving into DaB when you've stopped several times before, but you obviously know better than me.