Learning a hard new skill does take some level of willpower. You can't wait for powerful inspiration to make it happen, that is too fickle. You have the basic desire to learn to draw, but it sounds like you think of it as a chore. I am a beginner, been learning for a couple of months. Don't worry about skill building so much yet, focus on making it fun. Focus on the drawing stuff you enjoy, consume media about it to help boost your short term motivation, but most importantly, draw frequently, ideally every day. But start small, whatever you can manage, 5 minutes every day is better than 10 hours of powerful interest one week and no drawing the other 51 weeks of the year. Sometimes you have to just DO instead of think over it endlessly. I am giving myself that advice as much as you, I struggle with similar feelings. What helped me with Draw a Box was dropping all the rules and doing what I want with it. I'm using pencil for everything and not turning anything in and skipping stuff if I feel like it. I don't care if I need to go back later and fill in holes in my knowledge. The most important part to me is making drawing a big part of my life. Forcing myself to slog through stuff I currently hate doing is just going to lead to me quitting hobby. But the balance is that I do need to force myself past my laziness and disinterest a little bit. Once I'm sketching for a bit I like it, just gotta get the ball rolling. Good luck on your drawing journey :)