6:57 PM, Wednesday August 30th 2023
To be a little more specific, I was doing graphite portraits, and I learned how to shade really well, but not much else. I finished that challenge and then never drew consistently after it. I have recognized since then how much I was motivated based on results and positive attention from others, rather than just enjoying drawing. I tried doing more portraits at the end of last year and it was an absolute slog, even when I got myself to sit down and start drawing, I would get so deadly bored that I would stop.
The thing is that I WANT to draw and draw people. Like that's what I'm drawn to (no pun intended) very often. I also want to grow my skills, I could just totally forget about that and try and have fun, but I don't want to just draw like a two year old, I want to actually get good also.
If I were to do DAB, the purpose would be to start learning drawing fundamentals, I want to have a base of knowledge and skill so I'm not limited to just copying pictures or whatever.
TLDR: What I really truly want is to fall in love with the process of making art, and simultaneously make art that's actually good, but I don't know how.
Lmk if anyone relates to this and has more advice. I really appreciate this community :)