7:40 PM, Monday April 26th 2021
I get where you are coming from and I feel like if you really believe being able to erase your marks is better for you then go for it. And I don't mean that condescending in any way at all (sorry if my comment before made you feel like that)
As far as I understand it is part of what this website tries to teach - being okay with making mistakes because they will be there, they will mess up an entire page and there is nothing you can do about it. Mistakes are inevitable and that's fine.
but for now I believe that thing that did improve most since I started this course was my ability to embrace the suck. I suck, some of my lines are wobbly, not accurate, I miss about 90% of my superimposed lines and don't even get me started on some of my cubes where I put a dot where the line would have converged but I messed it up and the whole cube now is ruined...
...but I learned to accept that and for that I'm kind of glad
So the way I see it the 250 box challenge is not just there to get better at perspective. It's to improve at perspective, line making and being okay with ruining pages and boxes by stupid mistakes
(I'm not as far as you in the course so I could be wrong and maybe after 50 more boxes I'll give up as well though ;) )
However, if your mental health (or your partner's) is suffering just stop doing it! It's clearly not worth that and I don't think any person here judges you for that at all! Also I'm absolutely sure that if you want feedback on your work you can ask people on the discord server even if you draw with a pencil
PS: if you haven't already I would recommend reading the article on this page about using ink: https://drawabox.com/article/ink