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guess it's a matter of practice

Its important to explore and work hard but also to take it easy and not be too hard on yourself. Remember, we're here because we want to.

This is a hard road and if you don't keep what you like about it present (and it tends to get lost), then the obstacles eventually are just gonna defeat you

Hey,

from what you say I think you're more curious about drawing digitally than with a pen. So if you have troubles drawing for fun, then just try doing it on the tablet and start drawing whatever comes to your mind there. If you're writing for rpgs then maybe draw a character you have in mind. Or whatever you're drawing make up a story about it, or make a story beforehand and then draw it. Play with it.

To be able to draw whatever you want comes with ages of practice. Meanwhile it would be good for you to find enjoyment in the process of getting there, which is challenging because its not the most fun thing in the world. Not knowing what to put in a blank page is normal not only for artists, writers have the same, and normally it helps just to start with anything. Literally whatever comes to your mind and then build from that.

You wrote that you love drawing, then what do you draw when you feel you love what you're doing? It's hard for us who want to do figurative drawing to do it for fun, because our skill doesn't match our expectations. I totally get that and I'm on the same spot. What I do when I wanna draw for fun is that I either copy or just do something abstract where I don't have to think too much, this helps me blow off some steam.